I never got better. It’s all been pretend.
I just didn’t wanna tell you so,
‘cause, well, you’re such a good friend.
I never got better, I just put on this smile,
acted like it really didn’t matter,
made believe for awhile... that I ever got over you.
Woah, woah, but I’ll keep smiling for you.
Woah, woah, inside I’m dyin’ over you.
I never got better. Believe me, I tried.
But you know when you said what you said?
Well, when you said that, a little part of me died.
I never got better. I fooled ev’ryone else;
I just know the words for how I feel about you,
so I can’t fool myself. And I never got over you.
Woah, woah, but I’ll keep smiling for you.
Woah, woah, inside I’m dyin’ over you.
Woah, woah, but I’ll keep smiling for you.
Woah, woah, seems like it’s all I ever
Can you cure this disease? ‘Cause it’s not getting any easier,
and I think that this might be the end of me.
Can you cure this disease? ‘Cause it’s not getting any easier,
and I think that this might be the end of me.
Was there something I missed? Could it be I just suck at listening?
‘Cause I know that I’m nothing like a friend should be.
I never got better-- but I wish I didn’t let it get to me.
I feel pathetic, ‘cause I’m tryin’ to forget you, ‘cause I can’t keep dyin’
over you-- can’t cure this disease, I wish that leaving it alone was easier,
and I’m not as sure as I pretend to be.
I never got better, I never got better,
I never got better, I’ve gotta stop dyin’ over you.
I’ll never get better, I wanna get better, gotta get better,
I’ll never get better, I hope I get better.
credits
from Hypothetically [Maybe] EP,
released October 31, 2019
Written by Happy Leviathan (Ender Smith, Jenni Trewin)
Ender Smith: acoustic guitar, vocals
Happy Leviathan is an anti-folk/alternative-rock band from Seattle, Washington, whose music ranges from visually immersive
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- Ender Smith, guitar and vocals
- Aubrey Dangel Smith, ukulele and vocals
- Jenni Trewin, drums
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